Art + Alchemy was born during a time when my energy for my life, art and business were utterly depleted. My passion for the path I had spent years pursuing was gone. I was once again feeling like an empty shell wondering where my place in this world was.
I am no stranger to this feeling, I’ve hit more than a few bumps on my path. I had to drop out of college. The company that built my career burned down to the ground. I struggle with my health, having chronic fatigue and a mystery illness that turned out to be late stage neurological lyme disease. All of these things have changed the course of my life and have changed me at my core. I have visited rock bottom more times than I can count but was surprised this time to have touched that low place once again. I had a successful business and was finally able to work from home which made taking care of myself easier. For some reason, even though I had reached this point in my career, there was still something missing. Even though I was experiencing so many successes and exciting accomplishments with my art licensing business there was a strange knowing that I wasn’t where I needed to be. I tried to ignore these feelings but, the gentle whispers within me continued to get louder saying this is amazing but, it’s just not right, keep searching. At the same time, I was going through a divorce and starting to see that my life could be anything I wanted it to be. I was now living in a world full of possibilities with the opportunity to reconnect with the girl I lost to illness many years ago.
Over the next year, I decided to be kind to myself and give my spirit time to mourn, time to rest, and the space to renew itself. I began exploring my art and calling back remnants of my soul that I had lost along the way. I started to connect with who I really am on the inside and my art started to reflect this shift in my perspective. I was no longer creating art I thought people wanted, I was creating art that resonated with how deeply I feel. And for the first time in my life I knew I was finally being true to who I am and that I was on the right path. I had been called to go inward and connect to my source and even though that process was extremely painful at times, it was worth every moment. Through this time of exploration I knew I wanted my art to not only connect with me through its tone but to connect with others who share that same feeling. It’s moody, magical, dreamy, serene, peaceful, introspective and deep. It feels like a cloudy day, bare tree branches and the scent of an approaching storm when you can feel the atmosphere surround you. It resonates with those that seek the light even in times of darkness. It is visual poetry—muted colors with touches of light and inspired thoughts. Loosely painted florals, abstract landscapes and organic intuitive paintings are the core of my work but just the beginning. My dream is to fully embody the purpose behind ART + ALCHEMY. It is the act of using alchemy to change paint into expression, paper into art, and art into limited edition, handmade, purpose driven, high quality products for the “soul purpose” of connecting with you. I create art and products to soothe your soul and calm your mind and gently guide you forward with compassion and empathy for your struggles and love and support for your dreams and to let you know that you are not walking this path alone.
Photo by Chaucee Stillman