I’m sitting here on a couch in my studio thinking about this last year and where I’ve been and where I may be going. I took a lot of time off last year. It wasn’t something I planned on doing. It just happened.
It started in the early spring when the weather first began to warm up. I found myself sitting outside in my chair enjoying my view.
It quickly became my favorite time of day. I spent that time reading or just being mindful. For the first time in years I wasn’t obsessed with my work, I realized I was a little burned out and tired of pushing so hard. I shortened my work days to just a few hours a day and tried not to think about the money I should be making. I also cut back on my spending to relieve some of the burden. It’s funny, I made less money, but spent less so it all worked out and I enjoyed a year of taking better care of myself and rested my spirit up! I even started dating again after a three year break from my divorce. Lol, ugh dating… that’s a whole other story. Anyhoo, it was a good year as long as I didn’t beat myself up about not doing what I “should” be doing. A few months ago I started to feel the call to get moving again. Motivation started creeping back in even though I resisted it as much as I could. Little by little I’ve been getting back to work. Waking up earlier, getting on a schedule and thinking about my art, business and life. It’s my goal this year to find a healthy balance of all things. I feel incredibly blessed to have this life and the freedom it has given to me. I now know how important that freedom is and I don’t want to go back to working so much. I am fully trusting in the Universe and the process unfolding before me. I am also excited about evolving my art and business to be more aligned with my dreams for this balanced life. I am making some changes to the business and simplifying things. Most of you don’t know my inner turmoil about my art and two brands. One brand that speaks to my soul and the other that pays the bills. I’m going to try to merge them. I’ve been painting watercolor florals for over 6 years now. When I started there weren’t a lot of artists painting in the same style. Now, the industry is flooded with them. The trend is on it’s way out and I need to make some adjustments to stay in the flow. That’s what life is about, right? I am going to work on blending my looks together in a way that not only supports me financially, but keeps my inner light burning too. My work has to have meaning to me or it’s not worth doing.
Another thing I would like to do, but can’t make any promises is to show up more. Show up here in this space and connect with you. Show up on social media and share my work and life. The reason I can’t make any promises is that I am trying hard to not get caught up in the pressure of it all. That is how I burned myself out. I want to share because I have an inner calling to do it, not because it may get me followers or some weird sense of self. I just want to be me here with you.
Am I rambling? lol. I tend to do that. That’s it for now. It feels good to be here again. Does any of this resonate with you? Are you pushing up against walls that won’t move and feeling tired? Are there simple adjustments you can make to your life to give you some breathing room?