Art by my friend Kathy Weller
I have been on a roll for a couple of weeks now, feeling pretty good and getting things accomplished. It’s been nice. Even with the stresses I have going on, I’ve been good. Today, not so much. My day started out pretty normal till after lunch when I started to feel fatigued but, no biggie, it happens. Then, my joints started to throb, uh oh! This happens to me from time to time, but for some reason today it brought back a rush of memories from a difficult time in my life when I first got sick with my mystery illness. The pain today isn’t too bad and it is already starting to go away but, it sent me back to that time where I couldn’t escape the pain that persisted horribly for 9 months and mildly for almost 3 years along with a myriad of other symptoms. That time changed my life, it changed who I was at my absolute core and brought me to my knees. I haven’t thought about it for a while. It is funny, I still don’t feel well but it has become the norm for me. That is a very interesting thing to think about, how I have just accepted it. hmmm. Anyway, I am not writing this for pity, I am just writing because it makes me feel better and forces me to really look at things and find the hidden jewels in them. Truth is, I am a different person because of my challenges, I understand peoples hardships better and can empathize with them, I have a deeper understanding about life and the lessons it teaches us and how that shapes our purpose here. I know that I see everything differently and that I have a strength within me that can never be broken. The pain is almost gone now and it leaves me wondering, why did it choose to reveal itself to me today? Maybe I need to remember more, go back to that time and think about what was going on in my life, maybe there are lessons that are resurfacing that I need to address? Well, I know that I am rambling a bit here, my apologies for that. It was just so strange that in an instant, I was brought back in time and flooded with all of the emotions and experiences from a flash of pain that has now left me.
One of the beautiful things about working from home is that I can be kind to myself and rest. So, that is what I am doing. Tomorrow is another day and it is going to be a busy one! I have people coming over to help me paint the inside of the house to get it ready for sale! Ack!. Have a good night sweet ones.